A Stomach In Knots

it’s been in knots lately. i think it’s called growing up. life is changing. there are big things in the world. a friend’s daughter was killed this weekend. sixteen years old. i imagine my life without my sister and it breaks my heart to pieces. i can only stand in the periphery of their grief, the enormity of it something so unique and alien. no one should ever experience this. i ache for their grief. i’m breaking up with a friend. while i don’t regret my decision, it is a loss of a relationship. this decision was not made overnight. the relationship deserves to be grieved as well. nine, ten years of friendship? people evolve. relationships ebb and flow. it’s not as easy as i thought to switch from wordpress to typepad. i thought all i’d have to do was import my wordpress into typepad, change the domain mapping and that would be that. another reason why wordpress is the devil. other than not letting me email posts, post javascript, get detailed stats, and change the size of my font. wordpress isn’t letting go of my domain. this might sound petty to some people, but i wake up some mornings thinking of new ways to steal it back. i don’t feel like blogging lately and i don’t know why. i should probably go back to the gym.